Eight : Doubt

I don't wanna jinx it and all but I think I feel a lot better now, in fact everything is going fine with me and I'm pretty contented with my life now. (Totally jinx that up by saying it) Anyway, starting to get the groove of an art teacher. I sorta know what to say and what to expect from them. Yet I do not want to underestimate what the kids have in stores for me. They are so unpredictable but, sorta expected them to screw things up and I've gotta be stern. This week of Thurs and Fri classes were a lot better than last week's cause the kids opened up to me and chatted/played with me (in that case, not ignoring me anymore). I hope we could get along well. :) 1st week of class was fine with me. Happy to see my awesome classmates again :)

I was so traumatized by the dragon boat tragedy. 5 students and 1 teacher were victims of a sad sad tragedy that no one would ever expected to happen. No one would ever thought such an event would take away so many precious lives. Yea, I said it once and I'll say it 10000x again, life's damn short. I couldn't go to bed for days cause I've been so worried about death. And how life could be swallowed by such tinee tiny accidents. It might be the fault of others or it might be your carelessness. It might make you regret for the rest of your life if someone you cared passed away. You would be thinking why didn't I treat them better, why why why. And I still am worried. I once read an article that said it is foolish to fear death as you do not understand what does death holds. Or something like that. It was deep yet now I've realized it was true. Death might be dark and lonely, or it might be the best thing that will ever ever happen to you. So why waste time fearing it as you should live your life to the fullest so you wouldn't regret. It depends on your religion and belief. Hold strong to it people :) We will survive. ''Whoever believes in Him should not perish but have eternal life.'' - This is what I remind myself from day to day. So I would go to bed peacefully. 

I wanna thank God that I am still alive. :) :) :)

Love y'all. Peacezzzout.